Sitting up at my computer messing with my gadgets even though i should be asleep.
I just can’t help it sometimes my mind just stays awake when my body is drained. I always think of cool things I could look up and fuck around with for hours at the worst times.
Went to k1 today and it was a lot of fun, but i’m still soar from Andrew knocking me into the barrier :p Speaking of Andrew..
He is asleep right meow and I’m still in that butterfly stage. He doesn’t snore but he breathes heavy and it’s the most comforting sound but i don’t know why.. I love crawling into bed and having a warm snuggly person already waiting there for me :)
Going to go to the lab tomorrow with Nikki :D Then taking her to lunch I hope.
Loving life and the people in it for once. SO grateful for everyone and everything <3
I feel like i got spoiled for Christmas lol.. So many great presents that I am so thankful for. Not so thankful for all the next day video game shoppers though..
Life has been so stressful but so good at the same time. loving Family, great friends, old and new, and an amazing boyfriend. I really couldn’t ask for anything better(except maybe more hours at gstop)
Going to go get clean and hangout wiff my annie ^.^
Today I am supposed to hangout with Ali Murphy and Brittany Winder. WOW!
These girls are my oldest best-friends.(as in length of friendship not old ladies) ^.^ I am super excited and hope this weather doesn’t scare them off. I haven’t legitimately hung out with Ali in SO long. It’s been a while for britty as well. Meanwhile, I think I might bake some sugar cookies or something and make me a cup of coffee or tea.
Coffee? Check. Blanket? check. Still raining? Check. Snuggly kitty? Check.
Lately I’ve been floating, I feel like i’m in a parallel dimension along side everyone else while they’re in this one. I’m there but i’m not. Is it possible for the simple caress and a few nice words to make someones life do a 360?
In the matter of a few weeks I’ve fallen in love and feel like i’d simply stop existing if this person wasn’t in my life.
Would you call this moving too fast? would you say, “you’re foolish, you can’t already be in love with someone you hardly know..”?
Well my proposition is this: Maybe people aren’t finding what they’re looking for as soon as they’d like because their walls are always up. So many people get hurt once and decide love sucks and people suck so it takes them forever till they find something good again. Don’t get me wrong, I used to be this way. Ultimately though, this lead me down paths of self destruction every time. I guess what I’m getting at is, the next time you’re hurt by someone you ‘love’…don’t stay in your cave of depression and solitude(bedroom) all day wishing you had that person back in your life. I’m sure by now most of everyone I know has been down the “you’re the only one for me” road or at least seen a friend do it and have realized THERE WILL BE MORE THAN 1 LOVER IN YOUR LIFE. If you’re heartbroken get out there and just socialize. I’m not saying you have to rush into another serious relationship, any kind of relationship will do. And who knows, maybe you’ll find someone worth fighting for again. Way too many of my friends are all about the self destruction, “I’m not worthy” direction. Which, in the long run, is just a pain in the ass for everyone. Get out there and be happy again damn you! Everyone deserves a lover, and everyone deserves to be happy. If you feel like you can’t get out on your feet and you’ve been emotionally abused by love, ask a friend to HELP you get on your feet instead of “listen to me hate my life” and I’m sure any good friend will be more than happy to. If not, I will. You can be content again, but it won’t just come waltzing into your room…i mean seriously, when has a real reward come to you while you did nothing?