Theres no more chances for me to enjoy youth. I work everyday and am about to start college. I feel so dumb for not taking advantage of the time I wasn’t working. Just sitting on my ass all day :/
I’m so depressed by the thought that there’s not going to be anymore hanging out with friends….. :( no time for it if I want to be successful.. How fucking dumb…
My mom gave mr a laptop charger… And yet my computer decides to get all constipated and refuses to work.
Plus my phone keeps shutting off and not working correctly..
So now I don’t know how to do my orientation for college by tomorrow morning? …….. Don’t get to go to prom, I have about 50 bucks to my name and don’t even feel like I am capable of pursuing my career.
Blah blah blah. :(
i cant recall the last time i saw the sun rise, i cant recall the last time i heard the birds sing. i don’t remember ever knowing love all that i’ve learned hasn’t taught me a single thing. my retinas chafe with every passing day, my head forgets to keep my mouth in check.. before too long that overwhelming truth, of cosmic desperation slides hands around my neck. i couldn’t fake disinterest if i tried, but interest takes an effort to forget. operator would you please stop the ride, i might be ready soon, but i’m not ready yet.