….. I dont think he realizes how much thisis hurting me. He thinks I’m not being happy for him. its so hard to express joy when you just want to cry.. its so much harder to sleep now without his warmth. Not only that but im fully dependent on him. He gives me rides everywhere. Idk how i will get to school without him.. my work is displeased with my output and it shows. I won’t get to help Andrew set up his room now because I work when he wants to move in. My car isn’t making much progress.. these are just a couple things currently making me down.. sorry for carrying on but its my feelings. I want to curl up all day and cry. T.T
i’ve literally done nothing all day lol. andrew has been at work since 6am.. and he gets paid overtime on saturdays… lucky little bastard. I wish I would have chosen to do funner things during the earlier portion of today, considering If I do now andrew will of course come home and want to go do something boring. ah well.